i'm so lazy to update
i officially declare this blog dead!!(:
i will leave it here for the sake of it

this blog died on its 120th post(:

byebye!
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Click! (:

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I've created a new blog!
It's supposed to be my happy blog.
So if you don't wanna see my sad posts then don't come here.
I did this cause alot of people were getting on my nerves.
Complaining about emo posts and all.
Haha XD
Check out the links section(:

Everytime I hear a phone ring,
I reach out for it.
Everytime I see I've got a message,
My heart skips a beat.

But it's never you.
My rainbow is fading away.

Switchfoot - Meant To Live



Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live
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no more rants on my blog
i hate it already
i promise everyone
especially you
no more
i'm gonna start being cheery and all
okay no such word
but
you get it
i don't wanna let you make me sad
cause sad is not who i am

I don't understand what you want
You tell me something
The next moment, it's as if you never said that
You're not the only one who gets lost
Who gets emotional
You're not the only one who has feelings
You're not the only one who is busy
Just because I don't show it, it doesn't mean I'm not.
Just because the whole world likes you, it doesn't mean you can get away with anything.
Everything.
I'm not blaming you for it.
Maybe I'll let you.
But there's always a limit.
I'm trying to find out where it is.
Let's hope I will never reach it.
I didn't ask you for an explanation
That's not what I wanted
It doesn't matter to me.
Because I have never doubted you.
Always trusted that you would not lie to me.
Even when all my closest friends thought otherwise,
I believed.
That's how much you mean to me.
I'm not asking for anything from you.
Just do not send mixed signals.
I get lost, too.
Let's just go back to the way we were.
Okay?
It seems there is something you don't wanna hear.
Everytime.
It ends before I start.
Everytime.
Before I catch hold of what you're saying.
Can you please stop it?
Even if you don't know it, so what?
If you are trying to deny but the facts are as such,
It is still like that.
Please.
Don't run away from anything.
Maybe you are not.
This is all my fault.
It shouldn't have started to begin with.
It wasn't supposed to happen.
Nothing was supposed to change.
NOTHING!
But it already has.
And I need you to mend it.
I can't do it alone.
I don't know what's happening.
You have no idea, too.
Why don't we find answers?
Why don't you try to be me?
Then you'll know
How it feels.
How it hurts.
How it stings.
How it leaves a mark there forever.
My life is scarred already.
I have forgotten everything I used to believe in.
Now I only believe in you.
Prove to me.
That I'm not wrong.
Please.
Fix this.
I need to move on.
I cannot stay here.
To do that,
I need you.
I'm losing my mind.
Manic.
Do you think it's fun being high and low?
It isn't.
I don't even know what I'm living for.
I just do what my friends tell me.
Not to die.
I am nice.
So?
Does that matter?
I don't think so.
I can do alot of things for my friends.
And anything for you.
Anything.
Just stop this.
Like what I've told you before
There is nothing in being funny either.
If you're reading this
Then you'll know who you are.
But then
You never do.
Not anyone's
Your world is about you.
You.
My world is, too.
You're not the only one.
Just stop this.
I can stay friends with you forever.
And I mean it.
I've meant everything I said to you.
I've never lied to you.
I've kept every promise to you.
So why can't you just do something simple for me?
Stop this.